2:13am

May 30, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

eyes wide open, i’m waking up in a cold sweat. you chased me down in my sleep. night terrors, the creep standing at my door. the rest of my day is a haze. all i can think about is seeing you again. no matter how i far i run on this plane, you always catch me on the next. on to the next, or at least that’s what i told them.

its been 5 years and i love you still. it was your fault, then mine and yours again. scraps of what could’ve been lay crumbled on the floor. words that i regret putting in the universe. my heart has thawed but can i act as if it never happened? only your sweetness can overpower the bitter taste in my mouth.

another day gone and another night upon us. my eyes grow tired but i fight to remain awake. what was a blink has now become a slumber. the deeper i fall the closer you feel next to me. will it be a dream or a nightmare? i only know when i close my eyes. i pray i wake up next to you. my chances are slim. the grudges i hold can last forever. ice grilling at the pearly gates because i still remember when.

brenda don't play.

April 30, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

Melissa walks away and Sarah wonders out loud why she’s met most of Barry’s coworkers but not this one. Barry blames it on coincidence and the short amount of time they worked together. Before Sarah can continue to explore their relationship, she is whisked away by her Public Relations team. Sarah is an important writer and a small group of media is assembled in another room waiting to interview her. Barry smiles and waves at his loving wife as she leaves the large ballroom. Brenda fades into a mass of unfamiliar faces and Barry, now alone, scans the room for Melissa.

a letter from otis.

March 26, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

my boy, you’re just like me. you’re stubborn as a mule already, just like your old man. that is what i fear. i remember the first time you saw me drunk. before then, i was perfect in your eyes. whenever you looked at me i could see you studying me. you watched my every move but you didn’t know my baggage until then. i expected tears to flow or a face of surprise because you’d never seen me in that state. instead you looked up at me in disappointment. my life has been a continual disappointment for those who have claimed to love me, but the hurt i felt. i wasn’t myself that night. after i put you to bed, i forced myself to sleep hoping that you wouldn’t remember in the morning. you didn’t forget and i could never bring myself to say “sorry.”

fool for you.

March 20, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

my dog let me in, swear he like a brother from another, with a big embrace cuz we family. its a 2:1 ratio in favor of women so the energy is right. my homies are in attendance and damn its great to see them. its some beautiful women in attendance and goddamn its great to see them. i go to the kitchen to add my bottle to the rest. that’s when i saw her. her glowing skin caught me and her beautiful smile held me motionless. her hair is wild and untamed. “hey,” she said. hey. after remembering how to speak i responded. “hi.” she’s purposely alone. but she spoke first. true, but if she wanted to be social she’d be in the other room being social. i pour a glass of brown. my new found sophistication wouldn’t allow me to pour this premium brown into a cheap red cup. i’m extra but i clean up after myself.

lonerfez.

March 18, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

ne night, I stumbled across a video with entitled “Smoking a Carolina Reaper”. During the Carolina Reaper craze, people filmed themselves forcing down the hot pepper or as much of it as they could. Most videos resulted in tears, violent vomiting, or both. It was torture. I had to click on the video. A black guy wearing glasses and a coyote ugly style cowboy hat rotated a cigarillo filled with bits of crushed Carolina Reaper Pepper. He lights the cigarillo and takes a puff. my eyes widen. He’s insane. I watched his videos for the next two hours. His channel’s name was lonerfez. That video was watched over 100,000 times. late one night, i was searching for the video but i couldn’t find it. the video and the channel was deleted. All those views gone. I recently discovered that he started he started another page. It was another late night.