journal entry #16: no complaints pt. 1.

December 17, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

i am profoundly sad. i won’t say that i’m depressed because i haven’t been diagnosed as such but it would be foolish to ignore my current state. this is the first time i’ve said this aloud to anyone. to be honest, i should’ve said something sooner but i hate to complain. complaining feels like a sign of weakness. friends have asked me how i’m feeling or doing so many times and i never know how to answer. there’s the fake answer that is a complete lie: “i’m gucci.” there’s the answer that doesn’t directly answer the question but says enough so you won’t continue to probe: “i can’t complain.”

One False Step.

October 16, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

LeBron’s season starts with his Lakers against the Clippers on October 22nd. This has been LeBron’s longest offseason, figuratively and literally, since his first season in the NBA. For the first time since 2012, he has something to prove on the court and now he has something to prove off of it. A championship is the only thing that can validate his move to Los Angeles. Off the court, the mishandling of this China situation could have been just one wrong step. Hopefully he actually educates himself on the things going on in China. I think we all should.

journal #15: this close.

September 24, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

when i wasn’t playing sports, i was watching them. i was a cubs fan until they ripped out my heart in 2003. i already knew what disappointment felt like it and now that feeling crept into my sports. the bulls broke my heart in 2011 when they loss to the miami heat in 5. again in 2015 when they lost to the cavs. honestly my teams are usually on the losing end of championship games. my first sports heartbreak came in 2000 when the tennessee titans played the st. louis rams. steve mcnair was a hbcu grad so he was like family. eddie george, jevon kearse, frank wychek, kevin dyson, blaine bishop etc. etc. down 7, the titans were down to their last play. kevin dyson catches a pass around the 5 yard line and is tackled as he reaches the ball out stretches it toward the 1 yard line. this close to tying the game. my house was quiet when the game ended. why did i ever think my team could win?

happy birthday to me.

September 10, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

happy birthday to me. this has been a quiet yet eventful year for me. truly strange. i don’t have much to say this year other than thank you. my family holds me down daily. my brother, my mom & dad, my grandmother & grandfather, aunts & uncles, thank you. thank you to my friends for supporting me and my work. means the world to me. i feel a shift in my life. nesha told me i’m at that age where things will begin to change. she was so right. i don’t know where this year is going to take me but i’m ready for it.

the magic man.

August 19, 2019 by Kelvin Hicks

i was the magic man, known for my disappearance acts. i thought i was the best to ever do it. my greatest trick is one that i don’t perform often. i call it, the vanishing woman. although it’s rarely performed, this trick is the reason i was world renowned. my magic has taken me around the globe and back again. i haven’t performed the trick since I made my last assistant disappear. actually, she was more than my assistant. she was my partner. before she ever assisted with a trick, she was the love of my life. for now, lets call her “stacey.”